heart feelings

Sometimes there are not words to describe how I feel.
It doesn't help that I'm not very good at expressing anything verbally.
You know those people who can just paint a picture (masterpiece) with sentences?
Those people are so impressive.  They can make me feel something with their words.
How then, can there be things that happen in MY LIFE that spark inexplicable feelings?
Feelings that I have never felt, don't want to feel and I don't know how to NOT feel them.
I pride myself on just "feeling".  I like to feel and I like to follow my heart.  
In this moment, though, I don't know what I'm feeling.  
I just want to shut off my heart feelings or something.  My heart feels but my brain can't figure it.