now

Caring for others is such a wonderful opportunity and blessing.  I love having friends to spend time and experience life with.  The only thing is, for the past several months, I've felt my first-ever sharp pangs of having friendships that I feel are off limits..that I'm unwanted or "not allowed" in some ways.  For me, every person is special...no matter what they've done.  I treasure all of the people in my life and I want to let them know that mistakes and choices they've made don't change my care for them.  Also, their story is theirs to tell and share.  I would never disregard someone because of something I've heard they did or even for something I know they did.  That just isn't fair.  This world is one of sin and heartache, but humans also need love and support through all of that.  Sometimes life isn't fair and I know that.  But, I can honestly say I'm tired of sides and stories and questions and people second-guessing and not trusting.  Struggles are a reality and I know I will learn from this experience in my life and come to find good times with true, faithful friends.  My focus is going to be on treasuring the experiences, love, laughter, sunshine and wonderful people in my life NOW...and then renew this focus each and every day so I keep appreciating the NOW.