forgiven

regret. 

wishing i hadn't done something.

sometimes i feel that way.  sometimes i say it.

sometimes i ask for forgiveness.

why can't i have more control over my tongue, temper

and feelings?

i get in the moment and let the emotions flow

without

really thinking. 

forgiven?

asking for forgiveness is key.  and i have come to really value

the forgiveness.

those times that i got so upset and cried and walked away

and hurt someone because i wouldn't let them explain...

i regret those times. 

someone reminded me that you don't have to say

"it's okay"...because maybe what they did...or what you did

isn't okay.

but you can always forgive. 

forgiveness is saying it's over

no longer on record

a clean slate

you're free of that word, action or choice

i'm thankful for forgiveness in all of those situations.  

and yet, i still sometimes bite my nails

in the moment between asking forgiveness

the short pause

and then either a "yes, of course" or an "i don't know"

now, God's forgiveness....is another story

perfect

no hesitation

no memory of the wrong

He wipes everything away

a no-streak-no-dust-windex-clear window of your soul

a perfect soul

forgiven

and ready to live, choose and breathe another moment.

ahhhhhhh :) thank you Father!