I would say I am a creative and practical thinker. I don't often try to analyze or look at things from a purely logical perspective. This is not to say that I don't use logic, but I don't try to separate logic from the creative or practical side of things.
I am interested and knowledgable about a lot of things. I love animals, trees, flowers, water, cooking, drinking tea, reading interesting books, looking at my surroundings, shopping, helping others, school, spending time with people, exercising, doing yoga, reading poems, and finding quotes that fit my struggles or questions at the moment.
I don't really set times to "go think" or put on my thinking cap purposefully. I usually let my thoughts flow as I do chores, ride my bike to school, lay down for sleep, take a shower or do other things that make me happy (cook, make crafts, look out the window, browse the internet). I am constantly thinking, but my thoughts are usually a free-flowing, and smooth sea of words and pictures in my mind.
The sort of information that I usually seek in life is unique to me. Facts & data, theories & concepts, and instincts & feelings are three main categories of information in life**. Honestly, I think on all of these. But, I would say that facts and data are most welcome by my mind because they are concrete and real to me. When I see and can measure or know that something IS, then I accept it and can move on. My smooth sea of thought is not interrupted and I learn throughout my day. My instincts and feelings (the third category from above) are intertwined into my body. I AM instincts and feelings. Honestly, I know and accept my feelings as they come. There has to be some way that I assess and change how I feel (or else I would be manic/depressive…since I, like everyone, have ups and downs and moments of sadness and happiness). But, honestly, I can't put my finger on how I realize how I feel. I just feel! I have a way of controlling my feelings and letting my facts and data help me see the real picture of what is happening, I try to make sure I don't overreact (this doesn't always work). Then, I am able to presently feel a certain way. I have that power and I use it more than I know. I am proud of myself for that.
My thinking is free flowing & inventive. I have an imagination, and I have a way of letting my mind wander, if thoughts appear that don't belong or that are harmful in some way, I simply discard them and move on. If thoughts reappear, I think about why, and I work on truly changing my thinking to be more positive and real in that situation.
Big picture or detail minded? I would say I am a mixture of both. I consider the big picture and the details. I don't find a mind block if I don't know details of why I feel a certain way, and I don't get upset if I know a lot of details but haven't seen the big picture yet. I tend to just sit back and relax while life comes my way.
Most of the time, my thoughts come quickly. I am more often pragmatic, rather than seeking perfection or definite answers to each question. I actually find comfort in being practical and not seeking out theory and definition in everything. If I had been born before we knew what gravity was, though, I think I would have been a scientist. Seeking to find out how things flow and how objects do what they do on this earth. Why do the stars move in the sky, and how does the sun go across the sky everyday? I seek facts and want to know why things happen as they do. But, I don't necessarily cry or reach a mental cliff that I want to jump off of when I can't find an answer.
I know a person (someone very close to me) that has emotional energy and drive that is so inspiring to me. But, I have accepted that I simply don't have the emotional energy that all people do. I tend to get tired and actually more confused if I use too much emotional energy in thought. One goal I have for this next year is to gain more emotional energy. I want to learn how to control my emotion so that my thoughts can be more real and fair. I want my smooth sea of thoughts that I usually experience, to influence and help me have a smooth sea of emotion. Realizing that happiness and sadness will come, but I can ride those waves in a trusty row boat of emotional stability, rather than scrambling and sputtering, trying to stay afloat on my own.
I want God to help me. I want to continue finding inspiration from His words in the bible, and talking to others about their relationship with Him. When I am feeling upset or confused, I want to talk to God and tell Him that I need His help. After all, I want His help, even when I don't necessarily admit it at first.
I want to find out where I shine and where I falter. I want to find out more about myself and how I can keep calm and sail through life, seeing the sights instead of looking within too much. Helping others, building friendships, learning new things about the world, and having a trusting relationship with God are all things that will make me happy.
Happiness is my ultimate goal, but I know that it isn't going to be perpetual or perfect. I can't be happy all the time. But, I can learn and grow through my life experiences and relationships and be happy with all of that in the end.
**http://www.wellbeingwizard.com/index.php?option=com_content&task=view&id=409&Itemid=202
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