God

sometimes the only thing we need to do is take one more breath.
i'm reminded of that every time i see families broken down with
grief, fear, exhaustion and wonder.
they don't know what to do.
how they'll care for their child,
if their child will live,
what life will be like…
even in one hour.
breathing, walking, looking around the room…
it's all heavier, it's all harder.

that's what life can be like.
when we become dependent on ourselves.
it's easy to grieve, fear, become exhausted and wonder..
when we are leaning on our own feeble, frantic frames.
we think we can stand and withold the weight of it all.
we think we have to,
but that life gets tiresome.  

i want to lean on the one who built me.
the one who built everything.
our characters, our beloved lives, the world
…it all may shake & start crumbling.
but we know the one who can catch the last speck of dust
before everything goes to shit.

as we are about to completely fall apart,

He can make everything new.
so...
until my life is only one dust speck shy of destruction,
i'm going to lean on Him.

that's where i'll find my strength.