ins and outs and ups and downs no matter what

i'm feeling pretty sad today. in the midst of just feeling how i feel, i try to think "why?". i try to convince myself that there are so many others in much more trouble and with much more important reasons to be sad. but my heart still beats in that troubled, sluggish way. where i feel as if i could cry at any moment. looking outside doesn't help, thinking of eating breakfast doesn't help, either. it's so possible for me to rise above this and change and have a different outlook, so why am i still dwelling and feeling sad?

i think it's true, sometimes my heart needs to just dwell. feeling on my own, in the moment...without distraction, allows me to stretch and explore my heart's inner-workings. i want to know the ins and outs of my heart so that i can properly share it with others. so that my words and actions will be so pure and true. someday, i will be in the midst of a family who can cry and laugh together, fluidly - knowing that life has ups and downs and mysteries and heartbreak. knowing that we have each other no matter what.