you are the best

be your BEST POSSIBLE today
don't worry about who has done what
or what you have not done.
clear your mind of negativity
and look on the brightest of sides.

you are blessed
and breathing
and alive.

make the most of it
by forgetting most things
and just focusing on doing what
you love.



Negativity, comparison, fear and doubt can wash away even the prettiest of smiles.
Please remember to appreciate yourself.  You are SO perfect, just the way you are.  And, if you want to change...well that just proves that the way you are now is perfectly leading you to your best self.  The way your body works, the way your hair is growing, the way you do the dishes or fill your car with gas is entirely you.  No one does those things like you.  That freckle that you have that you like, or your best feature?  Think of those features being just the tip of the iceberg of your beauty and perfection.  God sees it, your friends see it, and you should try to see it, too.  YOU ARE THE BEST.

now

Caring for others is such a wonderful opportunity and blessing.  I love having friends to spend time and experience life with.  The only thing is, for the past several months, I've felt my first-ever sharp pangs of having friendships that I feel are off limits..that I'm unwanted or "not allowed" in some ways.  For me, every person is special...no matter what they've done.  I treasure all of the people in my life and I want to let them know that mistakes and choices they've made don't change my care for them.  Also, their story is theirs to tell and share.  I would never disregard someone because of something I've heard they did or even for something I know they did.  That just isn't fair.  This world is one of sin and heartache, but humans also need love and support through all of that.  Sometimes life isn't fair and I know that.  But, I can honestly say I'm tired of sides and stories and questions and people second-guessing and not trusting.  Struggles are a reality and I know I will learn from this experience in my life and come to find good times with true, faithful friends.  My focus is going to be on treasuring the experiences, love, laughter, sunshine and wonderful people in my life NOW...and then renew this focus each and every day so I keep appreciating the NOW.

summer jog

jogging in the socal summer.

so much sweat that my ponytail ends
get soaked.

warm breezes.

tank tops and tan lines.

squinting from the bright rays.

looking for the shady streets.

ah, i love it!

Lindsey

Shadow days walking in Loma Linda

like home

everything falls in to place.
when you are with the right people.
and you just feel home.
so far away from what once was "home" to you.
yet the same feeling. 
or at least... so close that it feels "like home" 

feet and hands

feet and hands.
they are so useful, so hard working
and yet we barely think of them.
these magical "digits"and limbs that can
feel
touch
explore
and tell us so much about the world
sometimes i take a moment to just
feel an object i'm touching
feel my ankles crossed as i sit
on the edge of a bed.
feel my finger pads typing
on the smooth black keys.
i'm so lucky.
to have these feelings.
my fingers twirl my hair
i walk quietly on the cool
tiles as i sneak in to my house
late at night
someone may be sleeping
and my bare feet are so good
at being quiet on the tiles.
life is full of simple pleasures
and beauties that we don't
even care to notice.
too focused on what we need to do next.
i am taking a deep breathe now
ready to start noticing again :)

tea

take a sip and feel the warmth.

slips down your throat real nicely.

even if there are open sores in there.

the tea won't hurt 

it'll only help.

you may have to be patient 

and blow a stream of breath on the surface

until it cools to a tastable temperature

then...

sip away your worries, fears and stresses

bask in the tea time comfort

warm hands.

warm heart.

warm soul.

:) 

where i am now

i was thinking just now
about how i am.

i've never regretted the place that i am.
i love it here.
loma linda.
i can ride my bike anywhere and not get cold.
(at least until december)

and i'm surrounded by so many good people.
people who i appreciate.
i love them!

i'm so glad i am where i am.
and i miss my family
but they're having their time and
i'm having mine.

i'm going to feel the breeze of my ceiling fan
and go to sleep.

i can't believe i'm almost done with my second
year of nursing school.

time has flown but i have experienced it all
i didn't skip any of it
and i'm glad i didn't.

every moment was worth it to get to where
i am now. :)