mellow moments

treasure the mellow moments.

tea in bed. grocery shopping at 9 pm.

watching tv under a cozy blanket. reading a good book. 

driving in silence. cooking for one. petting your dog. 

smelling flowers. closing your eyes to feel the breeze

a bit better. 

listening to the fan hum you to sleep. 

sipping your morning coffee. folding warm laundry. 

looking through old photos. 

gardening in the morning sunlight. 

yoga on the back porch. 

savor slowness and allow mellow perfection to settle in. 

lists and growing-up

i've become a list maker during this last year.  i now make lists every day at work to make sure i don't forget anything that needs to be done for my patients.  i also make lists of to-do's when i'm on a mission to have a productive day of chores/errands. no longer can i just assume i'll remember all the important stuff...there's now more important stuff to complete on some days than i can remember...or count on one hand. so i have to make lists. it's so weird! back before starting to work in the "real world" of nursing, i never did this. i wonder why i do it now. possibly because my chores are now completely up to me, i don't have a mom around to tell me what to do next. also, because now I pay for most things in my life and i want to remember to pay on time so i don't get delinquent and my electricity turned off or something. work is hectic with doctors writing new orders every hour and baby patients pooping themselves...so i have to make lists to keep myself sane, and so i complete the correct tasks for my shift. my sudden switch over to being a list maker surprises me and kind of makes me sad. i feel tied down and responsible for things. my heart that longs to be carefree now has a steady flow of stuff i HAVE to do...not an option to ignore them. i wish i didn't have to come up with $560 each month to pay my rent. i wish i didn't have thousands upon thousands of dollars to pay back for student loans i took out. perhaps life would be simpler if my brain could keep a tally of my tasks at work with no chance to forget a thing. i miss that child-like innocence and freedom of waiting until mom made me do something. i guess i'll just have to find child-like freedom in the little things. eat a pb&j once in a while, make a sand castle at the beach, stay up late talking with friends, wrestle with my dog in the backyard, and pick flowers on evening walks. there's still youthfulness to be found amidst the responsibilities, i guess.

03/18/2015
i'm going to detox/cleanse my body with lots of water, juice, and tea for two days.
so exciting! i love tasting all the natural things and feeling full of vitamins and real-stuff.
<3

PARADISE HAS NEVER BEEN ABOUT PLACES.

IT EXISTS IN MOMENTS

IN CONNECTION

IN FLASHES ACROSS TIME

-victoria erickson

love & loss & life

love can be found.
love can fade.
love can grow.
love can change.
love is all.
love can hurt.
loving is still
worth it all.

when i close my eyes tightly, i can feel my grandma's hugs.
i didn't hug her very often.
but the temperature of her skin, the softness of it.
the tightness of her grip when it'd been awhile
since the last embrace.
it was always wonderful.
she made me feel worth a hug and more.
i miss her.
funny how touch and scent and sight
and hearing can all blend in to a
feeling.
remembering, and
missing.



miss you, Grandma Lorraine

phillippians 4 stuff

10 I rejoiced greatly in the Lord that at last you renewed your concern for me. Indeed, you were concerned, but you had no opportunity to show it. 11 I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. 12 I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. 13 I can do all this through him who gives me strength.

i'm 25 years old.
my favorite things to do as of today, march 6, 2015:
-dance
-hug my boyfriend
-laugh with family/friends
-walk the dog
-jog
-drink coffee
-sunbathe
-practice yoga
-sing
-bike home from work
-decorate things/be creative
-cook